Rebecca14905

hi people!!

I wrote a poem today it was depressing and fluent it had a ring to it and was deep, but I will not be posting it on deviant art. For I wrote this poem for a dead boy named Jeremy Dunker (J-Dunk) he died last night wall I was complaining on having to see my dad, wall my brother yelled at my mom and the dog barked. You were probably eating dinner, watching TV, or sleeping. These things just aren't supposed to happen. I got to school this morning in a great mood but by the end of the day I was to depressed to speak. I barley new this guy, but I live in a very small, tight- nit community were every one knows every one, or are connected in some way. And to think that here, your home were you always feel safe, were you say nothing ever happens here. Something this tragic happens. By lunch today half the student population had either left of was roaming the hall. During 1st period the hallways were filled with people crying. It was deafly silent in all my class and I felt so bad for any one how knew J-Dunk personally. This was his last year in high school he had is entire life ahead of him, however makes the life and death decision is a bitch!
Any thing can happen, life is sort and we all could be gone tomorrow.
This day really mad me reflect on life, not just mine but in general.

J-Dunk, wherever and whenever you are I hope your at peace, we all miss you.

what to say about the new school year that sums it all up, oh i know, HOT. more specifically humid. now i wouldn't mind so much if 1) i wasn't really tried, 2) humidity didn't give me a pounding head ache, and 3) i wasn't trying to focus on the new year, and that impossible with every thing else going on.
Now yes it will get better once the air thins out and it gets a lot colder but till then i'm just going to sit in a hot sticky classroom paying attention to some stuff i learned last year and pretend to be aware of whats going on around me

Like always thanks for listening to my not so bad, but i make it worse life
till next time, or till i die whatever comes first.

Stuff that goes throw my mind at 1am when sleep deprived for 3 days and listening to music that makes it really hared to think:
why? i don't ask it to be rood like all my teachers and people over 25 think, I really wont to know why. SO fucking answer me when i ask!

so i'm siting in my room in PA listening to A beautiful lie by 30 second to mars (love there music) and i'm thinking to my self why the hell can't i fall asleep. ANd you know what a lot of things go through your mind when you can't do any thing but passé in your room which isn't that bad.

Stuff iv'e bin thinking of-
-iv'e forgotten how to spell over the summer
-i still need to finish my summer reading book
-the reason all vampires sound like stalkers is because they are, it's there animal instinct to Stalk
- i'm half looking forward half pissed about school starting next week
- a lot of these ?'s haft to do with school
- i want to consider a carer in Philosophy or phycology (i can't believe i spelt these two word right, but i had to use spell-check on Because; WTF)
- i should pick up art again
- i wish my fantasy were real cause reality Sucks Ass
(song change to Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day)
- iv'e spent most of my summer watching Netflix (old Tv shows from 5 or more years ago and movies that no one has heard of)
-this is a lot of pointless stuff you don't care about, i can't believe it took me this long to figure that out


Sorry for wasting your time, unless you enjoyed this then i'm NOT sorry
Ya you heard me i'm not sorry, deal with it

I'm leaving the house for the first time in almost two weeks, i wonder if what they say is true about the outside.
If theres real air and wind and trees.
It's so incredible it might just be true,
if i am not to return under any circumstance do ONE of the following

1. sing and dance with great joy,
2. go down to your knees and scream WHY...WHY, with felling,
3. do an irish jig,
4. do whatever you were doing before, you don't know me and why should my death/disappearance mean any thing to you, or
5. kill your self and on entry to hell give me a high five from the pits of tartarus (unless you god to heaven, if so, screw you!)

Also if i should die of unexplained reasons even, if proven to be an accident or self inflicted,

IT WAS MURDER!!!
did you hear me MURDER
EVEN if Death note, IT WAS MURDER


I Got the Murder bit from SNL